Not the best of days…

It was not a good day.

It had started in the early hours with a nightmare that woke me screaming. Given the general atmosphere of fear, anger and frustration that seems to be being reinforced at all turns and with every headline, this was hardly a surprise. Except to the dog… who still hasn’t forgiven me for waking her in a panic, teeth bared and ready to protect hearth and home.

It continued with a blackmail email, sporting one of my passwords just to show they did, indeed have access to my computer.

The ‘gentleman’… and I use that term so lightly it could vapourise at any moment… then went on to suggest I pay a ridiculous amount of money to stop him sending emails to my contact list. Emails containing details of my ‘”sick tastes” in pornography and the videos he had captured through my webcam while I was watching the aforesaid porn. As I do not visit pornographic sites and do not actually have a webcam on my computer, as I haven’t used that password since an email security breach some years ago and as, on investigation, it would appear that the text of this particular mass email is well known, I felt perfectly justified in reporting and deleting.

Even so… it was vaguely disturbing. It is my inbox… and such a find feels rather like having an intruder in your home. It left me feeling besmirched. I can only imagine how terrified many people would be by such a nasty piece of work.

And he has the cheek to call his victims “sick”!?

To follow up rapidly, my first job of the day was to remove ‘Poorly Fish’ from the pond for burial. Poorly fish was a huge mirror carp in my son’s pond. He has not been well since last summer and we have tried absolutely everything to try and make him better. Up until the past few days, he has still been able to hang out with the other fish… then he started self-isolating in a corner. His eyes began to bulge and Nick was beginning to think of the kindest way to end the suffering of a twelve-pound fish. Not a pleasant thought or an easy decision in any circumstances. But, seeing parallels with his own situation when he was in the coma made it even worse to contemplate.

Thankfully, Poorly Fish gave up the ghost overnight, removing that awful choice, but presenting me with an unhappy task first thing this morning. However, trying to get him out in a net he had outgrown was no easy task either… and pulled my neck badly enough to leave me with a growing headache, that was getting worse by the time I had managed to cut my grass and clean the windows. Especially as the elderly lawnmower also gave up the ghost, blew the main fuses, doing dreadful things to my computer as well as upsetting the fish in the aquarium…

Then, when I checked the news and found the recommendation that over-fifties ought to remain in lockdown longer than younger people, I damned near exploded! So, it is okay, if we are over fifty, for us to risk life and limb going out to work every day and keeping the country running while the majority stays at home, but not okay for us to get any kind of life back when everyone else is eventually let out of their domestic prisons? (Insert expletives of choice. Yes, all of them. Mine are probably unprintable.) Now, that would just be asking for trouble…

I console myself with the thought that tomorrow is a new day…

About Sue Vincent

Sue Vincent is a Yorkshire-born writer and one of the Directors of The Silent Eye, a modern Mystery School. She writes alone and with Stuart France, exploring ancient myths, the mysterious landscape of Albion and the inner journey of the soul. Find out more at France and Vincent. She is owned by a small dog who also blogs. Follow her at and on Twitter @SCVincent. Find her books on Goodreads and follow her on Amazon worldwide to find out about new releases and offers. Email:
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60 Responses to Not the best of days…

  1. Sadje says:

    It was a rough day. Hope you feel better soon. You so take on a bit too much on your shoulders.


  2. Too much for one day. I hope things are better tomorrow. Stay strong!


  3. Glee Sparkle says:

    Believe that tomorrow will be better than todayπŸ™‚ … because it sure will be πŸ₯°
    Hope you have a happy day ahead πŸ™‚
    Stay safe
    Don’t forget to Glee and spread sparkles ✨


  4. Yeah, that’s pretty, ‘crappy’… πŸ˜‰


  5. Ritu says:

    Oh Sue…
    What a day!
    I’m sorry about Poorly Fish.
    And I’ve just stopped watching the news and daily updates right now, until they olive concrete instructions. So much speculation!


  6. Helen Jones says:

    Oh, Sue – that’s an awful day, I’m so sorry!
    Here’s hoping today will be better for you xx


  7. beth says:

    that is so much in one day, today has to be better


  8. Mary Smith says:

    A truly awful day, Sue and I’m sorry to hear about Poorly Fish. I’ve had several of those blackmail emails. You’d think they might have sussed by now that I’m not paying up. Fortunately the spam filter catches most of them. I hope today is better for you. The sun is shining here – hope it is shining on you, too.


    • Sue Vincent says:

      It is indeed a lovelyday today, mary. As for Poorly Fish… it was time he left us, I’m just sorry we couldn’t help him more.
      Those blackmail emails are just dreadful… I can imagine them being terribly upsetting for many people.


  9. joylennick says:

    Oh, Sue – what an awful day… What despicable excuses for humans live among us! May his car tyres disintegrate and he has a plague of ants in his pants. Really!.The beautiful photograph must have given you some relief. Hope the rest of the week has better up its sleeve. Take care. Virtual hug. x


  10. bobcabkings says:

    I got an email like that about a year ago, which was obviously bogus for much the same reasons. These creeps only need to get a few people out of the many thousands they send to to pay to make some easy money. They don’t even have to do the claimed hacking, just make some believe or fear they did. I was able to trace the address chain back as far as the email account of a municipal water department in Turkey, but that was not the ultimate origin.


  11. quiall says:

    Sorry for your loss. As bad as your day was it did give a post to share . . . The sun is shining somewhere and, in time, we will look back on this time with pride that we stayed the course.Or $%^&*( we survived!!


  12. How infuriating! There’s a certain contingent of society (especially among advertisers) that seems to think over fifty means LIFE over. Considering many people now live to 100 and beyond, that would mean your life is over when it’s only halfway through.


  13. memadtwo says:

    Wishing you a better day…
    Considering a large number of the deaths in New York have been in nursing homes, perhaps it would be better to send medical supplies and personnel to those locations if they want to save lives…(k)


  14. wallietheimp says:

    That’s so sad about your fish. I hope that your day (and week) are much better soon!


  15. Not a good day, Sue. I bugs me that there are people still scamming and being greedy and hurtful while there is so much real suffering going around. It seems especially cruel. Many of us are having similar struggles. At least your government is acting as if it cares about you. Not so here in the US where they just want us all to get on with it and die so the stock market can recover. 😦


  16. gmvasey says:

    Oh I’ve had that email many times already… and others. Last week, I was sending emails out to people or rather someone pretending to be me was. I had the last laugh though. They sent the email purported to be from me to a list they stole off an old server we used to use. The email list they stole was the spam list! So, the spammer spammed the spammers….


  17. Jim Borden says:

    what a day; I hope tomorrow is a better one. But it still looks like you managed to get many things accomplished, more than many people do on any given day…


  18. Sounds like quite a day. Sorry about poorly fish, though I’m glad he gave up by himself so you and your son didn’t have to make that decision for him. I hope you had a nightmare-free sleep last night, and that today has been a better day.

    If it helps any, you just made me feel a whole lot better about the bad day I had a few days ago. I expect it doesn’t help much, if at all, though.


  19. Ugh! πŸ€—


  20. I think, Sue, that people who have underlying health conditions should be recommended to stay home for longer. I do not believe, however, that this infringement of our freedom of choice and ability to earn a living should continue against our collective wills. It should be an informed choice made by individuals.


  21. dgkaye says:

    Holy crap Sue. It’s full moon madness. Yes, stay inside, or please wear a mask. ❀


  22. bookstopen says:

    What a terrible series of events – that’s too much for one day.


  23. Widdershins says:

    Well, bugger! … is that why you went on a cleaning frenzy? To blow off steam? … Ani told on you. πŸ™‚


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