Okay, I don’t wander off and not post as a rule, but this time I have little choice. After a fabulous day in the frozen north Sunday, I posted some pics and felt suddenly very unwell and in a fair bit of pain. I slept almost non stop for the following 36 hours,completely unlike myself. I do not sleep that much, I can’t even have a lie in on a Sunday morning, yet I clung to that bed like a limpet to a rock. When I finally surfaced, I set off for home feeling dodgy but ok to drive, heading for dinner with dear friends. I mean, I should have known. I had not been able to face coffee, and a day where I cannot face coffee is one that needs close scrutiny before it is allowed to be unleashed on the world.. I got half way home and was suddenly obliged to be very grateful for the good Samaritan who physically picked me up and called the ambulance.
The car remains abandoned in a lonely layby, and I hope it will still be intact when I get back to it. I am now attached to a variety of machines by stickers and needles, to the stuff that pretends it is feeding me while I still cannot eat, ( as if I can afford to lost any more weight!) and while the very nice staff zap me with all the technology in their armoury, scratch their heads and consider. They will probably just patch me up and send me home to the hospital that has been investigating and has all the notes and results, to continue with the whole saga. I am booked in there already for surgery in a few weeks.
I would like to thank the kind gentleman who hauled my sorry body back into the car and called for help. I have no idea who he is, was not, in fact, in a fit state to recognise him again. I just remember kindness, and a brief glimpse of a beautiful old lady in a sari who I assume must have been his mother.
It has been very odd. The amount of morphine I’ve been given would make most things odd, of course, but I do find there is a curious lucidity in that time when it clears the system. It occurred to me that over the past few months I have been having all my inner barriers broken down, one way or another. Whether it is being forced to look at certain belief systems differently and understand them at new levels, being forced to look at myself and the people around me with new eyes, or something as simple as realising I am not invincible and am as subject to the whims and fragilities of life as anyone else.
And that is all part of the journey, of course, isn’t it? To see how narrow our own views can be, even when we think we are wide open to life. To realise how things we see as restrictive in others can be working just as merrily in our own lives under the surface. Then we can kick ourselves quietly for our blindness and do something about it. Once again even the seemingly negative becomes positive and an opportunity for growth and change.
So, as I admit defeat, admit I am not invincible, and need, after all, to rest and to allow others to help me for a change, I will leave this here. I appear to be rambling a little.
I am not equipped to work much here, nor, to be fair, do I feel up to it, or even awake enough. But I just wanted to say thank you for the good wishes and assure you that the case of the disappearing blogger can be closed. Normal service will be resumed as soon as possible.
Sue Vincent's Daily Echo 
LOL (Sorry… can’t get past the inner child cartoon… knew they were trouble! 😉 )
Hope you they get you patched up and on your way soon. Enjoy the morphing while it’s available… 😀
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Glad to know what’s going on. Rest sounds like the priority at the moment. Hope you’re better soon.
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Thanks Julie, I think sleep is in order again about now,
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Sending best wishes across the pond for you to feel much better very soon. ‘So pleased for you that you’ve received kindnesses. xo
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Thank you Sirena x
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Hope you feel better, soon. Good to know there are still good souls out there in this messed up world of ours. Take care.
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Makes all the difference, doesn’t it, Fransi x
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It sure does.
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Yesterday, as I was writing my blog, I wondered where you were. Lately your blog post pings in just as I am writing mine. I missed you! And send love and light! Take wonderful care and rest up. Big things await you.
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I sort of missed me too yesterday 😉 Not sure where I was but it wasn’t the usual version of reality…
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Be well and take care. Much love to you.
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Thank you Alethea x
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Oh my gosh, what a story!! I’m so glad that a kind soul rescued you. Please get this sorted out soon and feel better. We’ll be waiting right here for you. Sending love and healing vibes.
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Thank you.. I’m working on it 😉
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Hey Sue,
I missed you too yesterday. I am so sorry you have been under the weather. I hope you feel better soon. Prayers coming your way. Rest now. From your nurse friend from America. : )
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Thank you Alesia x
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I am so sorry to hear of your trouble, but am also grateful that you posted this. Please don’t think I’m crazy after this, perfectly sane most days, honestly. The night before last, I woke up at 2:27 in the morning (US pst) and had been dreaming of you. I dreamt that I was trying to interview you for my blog and we were standing next to the ruins of an old castle. I was trying to ask you about what your plans for the future were, but all you would say is “everything is built brick by brick and therefore must be undone the same way.”
I woke last night again thinking of you, and although we have never met, please know that I find you to be a light in this world and your presence missing around here was not only noticeable but saddening. sorry if that sounded strange, it was such a realistic dream.
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I’m glad you said ‘most days’… not sure how I’d cope with perfectly sane every day… 😉 Ionia, I live my life by strange, so it sounds perfectly normal and reasonable to me.I have a feeling that I shall be looking into those words.
And thank you. I don’t really know what else to say to that.. I am deeply touched. x
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Sending you warm wishes:)
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A very scary experience. I’m so glad that there was an “angel” nearby to get you the help you needed. Get well fast, Sue. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
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Just starting to get ready for work as I read this, haircolor still in 🙂 Love the cartoon, I am amazed that you are as witty and strong as this under the circumstances. I told Steve T I will be “double tracking” the day. Keeping you in mind. Rest and let the good vibes roll. Love from clear across the globe. xxx, D
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Thank you Darcy xxx
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Wishing you wellness.
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Thank you Paul
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Awww Sue..much love and healing blessings dear heart, I hold you in a big pink blanket of warmth and get well mojo (((Sue)))
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Warmth? Sure I’ve heard of that concept… still snowing here… 😉
Hey Leisa xxx
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I must’ve known LOL
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🙂 x
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Hope you are on the mend love
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I am.. I want to go home… so I am regardless 😉
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Your doggy will be missing you 😦 take care sweetheart. ♥
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I’m missing her too. x
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Gosh, that sounds like you had a ‘trying’ past few days but I’m glad there was someone nice available to assist you. It sounds kind of scary too but hopefully you’ll be able to return home soon. Hope you’re feeling better soon.
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Thank you Natalya. Most people are wonderful given half a chance, I find. Certainly I’ve met a few lately.
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That is true! 🙂
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Yesterday I wondered where you were and also thought how does she do it all so gracefully. I feel productive if I get more than one blog post a week. Be grateful to your body and listen to it. If your physical ailments had a mouth what would they say to you?
Sending light and love your way. Midwife 4 Joy
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Thank you, Dianne, I think yesterday I really was pretty much away with the fairies.. and Monday too. Getting there now though. If my blood pressure and temp would go up a little and various other things, like my hands, come down they might let me go home… though they may require me to eat first. x
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I hope you feel better soon
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Thank you! So do I 🙂
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Hope you feel better soon! 🙂 Hugs and Love
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Thank you x
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Hope you feel better soon. Blessings, positive energy, and whatever else you need being sent your way.
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Thank you Charles
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Get better quickly, Sue. I’ll be sending you strength and energy each day. Chris
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Thank you Chris
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I hope you are soon recoverd. Very sorry to hear that you’ve been poorly.
love Angie x
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Thank you Angie. The sooner the better 🙂
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Ionia sent us over to wish you a speedy recovery, which I do! I took the time to look at your photos, and they’re gorgeous! England is such a beautiful country! I hope you’re soon up and at ’em and able to enjoy it again.
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Thank you!
Yes, it is a beautiful country indeed.
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I’m amazed you still can do a wonderful post… Thank you so much for letting us know what has happened. Hope you get well soon, Sue!
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Thank you Amy x
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Holding you in thoughts of comfort and healing.
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Thank you Marga x
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Hope you feel better soon. Get rest. Don’t worry about posting on your blog, while you should care for yourself. (It’s nice that you informed us though.)
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Thank you. I’ll do my best 🙂
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Sending healing thoughts your way, take care 🙂
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Thank you 🙂
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I wondered where you had gone – thought you were just very busy at the moment! Sorry to hear about your troubles. 😦 Lovely to know some kind souls came to your rescue! And I hope you get back some kind of normality very soon! 🙂
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Normality? pas the dictionary, would you ? 😉
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Dear Sue, I hope you are in the best of hands and wish you a speedy recovery! Rest and take good care of yourself!
Your reader from Charleston, SC, USA,
andelieya
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Thank you so much 🙂
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Be well soon!!!
Bless
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Thank you Bert
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Love and Light
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Don’t feel you have to keep blogging – rest, rest, rest!! So much love…
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Thank you Susan. x
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Oh Sue, I’m so sorry you took ill, but praise God that it was a couple of KIND strangers who came across you in your weakened state. Sending good thoughts and prayers for your continued healing and strength. Love and hugs. 🙂
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You know, the layby was full of people in vehicles. these people actually stopped to help.. the others either did not see or chose not to. But I was blessed by these people being there.
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Lots of warmth from me coming your way!
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Thank you, Salee
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I hope you feel better soon Sue xx
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Thank you Jenny.
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Well, I just came in from several days on the road during which time I have only been “communicating” on a one-way basis. So I hadn’t noticed that you’d ‘disappeared’. Found along the side of the road near your car?!! Whatever it was (or is) that waylaid you I hope by now the attending medics have isolated and sufficiently punished. My sincere best wished for a speedy recovery Sue. You have a lot of readers out here. I suspect that for every one of us who openly corresponds there are ten or more who simply drop by and read your observations. Get well!
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Thank you Richard. I have been liberated from hospital and whisked home by another miracle of kindness and care. The problem is an ongoing one my local hospital is dealing with. I am sore, very tired, and not ‘right’, but I will be. I’m not good at being ill 🙂
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I’m so glad you posted about the morphine – I got such a laugh at you addressing me as “Mark” yesterday, but was unsure whether to say so, or not!
Now, we can just have a laugh together over the side effects of pain killers 🙂
(As long as it doesn’t hurt for you to laugh – if so, then assume this comment was a mean one and frown instead of laughing, I would hate to be the cause of further discomfort)
Sending best wishes for your speedy recovery!
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I apologise for anything said under the influence of way too much IV morphine 🙂
I shall frown gently and pretend it was a chuckle 🙂
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Hate it when it hurts to laugh! Get well soon!
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Do my best 🙂
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Hi Sue, healing thoughts with every breath.
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Thank you. I’m working on it 🙂
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I’m very sorry for your bad experience and for the pain you are through, dear Sue.
I’ve been quite absent these days, yet my heart goes to you, I embrace you from some hundreds kilometers away. May God give you health, strength, love, so that you have the force to work and spread your goodness, love and wisdom.
Much love and many hugs,
Ela
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Thank you, Ela. I had noticed you were quiet, but as the Reader is playing up a little wondered if it was simply that. I hope things are well with you?
Love and hugs,
Sue
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I’ve been through a lot lately as well my dear Sue but I will not talk about it. We all have our path, our lessons , our losses, our pains. I guess being humble and quiet was my only way to deal with life these days.
Please take care of you, you are precious to all of us. You see, even in the pain you experience right now you still give a thought about others, and I find this just awesome. Most people are just centred on themselves. You are such a special soul.
🙂 Many hugs my dear.
Ela.
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I am sorry, my dear Ela, to hear that you are hurting. I can only send love and virtual hugs from here, but know that you have them.
Now pass me a tissue, would you, I’ve gone all weepy again at your lovely words.
Bless you, dear.
Sue x
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Don’t cry beautiful soul, and do not worry about what happens to others, we all have to break our knees and souls and bodies and hearts and minds in order to find our way and to become what we are supposed to become, what God meant us to be. Pain is synonym to life and nothing good gets created without pain, so we are alive.
Bless you my dear Sue
❤
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We are indeed, and I cry only when something beautiful touches me.
All we encounter, dark or bright, is a gift we can learn from and grow with. Life itself is a beautiful thing, but we need the contrast in order to see it clearly.
Love and hugs, dear,
Sue
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Yes, life is battle, beauty, lesson, light, darkness… All we need to grow and shine.
May your day be filled with peace and love, for you are one of the few that shine their peace and love on others. Bless you for this.
Love and hugs dear Sue.
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Love and hugs to you, Ela. x
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I am so very,very sorry to just hear about your illness. Have not been doing my usual blog work and just now read your beautiful, sad piece on being sick. I detest hospitals so am very sympathetic. And amazed you did a post. I do hope you can eat soon! You will be in my prayers and, if you like and know about Reiki, I can do a distant healing for you, but let me know if you want one and what day your surgery is on so I don’t do it then. Also let me know your time zone.
Many healing blessings sent your way and a big hug,
Ellen
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Hello, Ellen. Thank you. I am home for now.. and still wait the date of the surgery, though I am seeing the surgeons on the 17th.I seem to be living on fruit and smoked salmon.. not a bad combination, thanks to my son. Not doing too badly, just need to be back up to speed for the next few weeks.
I am not far from London, so GMT, and grateful for any healing. Thank you x
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Glad you’re home now. And eating. I will do a healing Tues. @9AM EST which will be 2PM your time, I believe. Hugs, Ellen
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Thank you Ellen. I really appreciate that. x
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Did a healing today around 1:30 PM your time. Hope it helps.
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Thank you, Ellen. I was actually dozing about then too. x
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Hope you feel better soon. 🙂 {{{hugs}}}!
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I’m working on it 🙂 Thank you
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Good to have you back. I trust you recover very soon. Lots of prayers.
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Thank you, Pete
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Thinking of you, Sue. Hope to hear that you’ll soon be better. Kindest regards, Thurstan
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Thank you, Thurstan. I am very much better at present.
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Hope you get better soon, Sue (love the cartoon!)
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I’m working on it Rachel 🙂 Thank you.
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Very moving to read. I hope that you are recovering well. Thank you so much for viewing my blog. I hope you have enjoyed reading about my adventures. I sure hope that you don’t have too many adventures of the kind you have experienced lately! Lots of snuggles. Ethan x
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Thank you, Ethan… I have Ani looking after me. You would like her.. 😉
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Well I do love the ladies! Particularly the caring and loyal type. Ani sure sounds like she has those qualities in abundance. Well I would love to hear about any adventures you have been on together. Maybe I could then try something similar myself, as my life has been pretty sheltered up until now. E x
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Ani writes here occasionally.. ‘Notes from a small dog’. She’s very easy to get to know 🙂
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I will definitely keep my eye out! Look forward to hearing from her! 🙂
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Reblogged this on lost creek publishing.
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Sickness has a way of shaking things up a bit. When I was a grade-school teacher, kids would be out sick for a few days. When they returned, it was not just my imagination that they had grown a bit; not only in stature, but in inner dimensions as well. If this holds true for adults, I can’t wait to read your upcoming blogs. Be well, and thank you again. Thank you for following my blog; landscapingthesacred.wordpress.com
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Grow? Good lord, that would ruin all my sons’ favourite jokes.. unless it is sideways..
The inner growth, however, is very much tied up with the launch of the School in 13 days time, and I have a feeling that the illness is all part of the way these things are put in place, and that it is very much part of the process and purpose.
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Sending good thoughts your way Sue, I hope you have an easy recovery. Sounds like you have a great attitude toward your situation. May you grow in a gentle easy way! Brad
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Thank you, Brad. Doing okay so far 🙂
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Thank you Brad. A firm diagnosis and treatment will help, but all things in their own good time.
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Best wishes Sue! Just a sand storm. The world is waiting for the sage in you and no sand storm can take that away from us.
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Thank you 🙂
It is having its uses.. as do all things.. and making me behave.. which means work and knuckling down to the preparations for the School launch in 12 days (imagine me gulping in minor panic!) while also forcing me to rest more. Which is good.
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Sending you long, beautiful days of restorative rest. Dancing days soon!
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Thank you, Alice 🙂
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You had me at the Randy Glasbergen cartoon, love his work and haven’t seen it in years. All fun and silliness aside, I wish you all the best in your recovery and can attest to the importance of rest. 🙂 Hugs & happy thoughts.
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Thank you.
Its a great cartoon, isn’t it? 🙂
Rest won’t be happening for a while, I think.. but all things are relative and i will pace myself as best I can 🙂
Hugs back!
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I hope you are fully recovered now and that they found the cause of your problems!
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No to both.. surgery booked in May, when hopefully they might decide what the problem is and deal with it 🙂 I’m too busy to be ill 🙂
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That is well and good but you need to take care of yourself , if no one else will!!
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I’m doing my best 🙂 And of course, Ani keeps an eye on me and my sons.
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Good , good. 🙂
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🙂
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I thought that bloggers were invincible; you’ve unnerved my whole existence!
Terry
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Hey.. I’m still writing 😉
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