Goliath

It has been a lousy weekend. How’s that for a start to a cold, wet Monday? The wind demolished the fence and it is now beyond my skill to fix it single handedly, and the dog is persistent in her efforts to escape. The internet has been dropping out left, right and centre, the PC has misbehaved, there have been power cuts, I’m way behind on just about everything… For the last bit at least, I have only myself to blame; the mojo up and went, leaving me high and dry and unable to settle to anything much.

Even the dog gave up on me and took to gardening instead of playing fetch. As the winter tidy-up is on the to-do list, she probably thought she was helping… though I could wish she hadn’t tried to be quite so helpful in the mud when the sofa is cream and the washing machine dead. Add to that a second and unexpected round of hot-tub cleaning in freezing weather and you look upon one who has not enjoyed a weekend’s repose.

Why? Apart from the winds and the mechanical failures… Something on my mind that arrived in the post Saturday morning. I had been looking forward to that letter, because even though it might mean disappointment, at least it drew a line under one course and opened the gates to other possibilities. Instead, when it arrived, it brought a whole new set of unexpected problems.

We won’t mention details. Let’s just say that such unfair corporate bullying and bloody-mindedness is the final straw after a year of dealing with a distinct lack of common sense. So this morning my sleeves will be rolled up, loins duly girded and a letter drafted as a prelude to what is likely to become an altogether unpleasant episode of banging my head against the brick walls of blind minds. Under the circumstances, my words will doubtless fall upon wilfully deaf ears, but whether this is seen as a forlorn hope or the product of righteous wrath, I shall do my best to obtain an equitable resolution. Keeping my temper is going to be fun though…

Now that it is Monday, however, I can at least start to do something more productive than fretting and that makes all the difference. I love that quote from the Dalai Lama… the one that says that if you can change a situation, why worry? And if you can’t, why worry? In a perfect world and a perfect state of mind that is perfectly true. The reality is that we worry anyway and when we are forced to mark time before acting, it is human nature to fret.

I have three choices as I see it; give in meekly, run away or stand and face the prospective giant armed with little more than the slingshot of logic and a handful of common sense. I’ll be damned if I’ll do either of the first two, especially as the situation is completely unfair. In many ways it doesn’t even matter if I ‘win’ or ‘lose’… it matters more that I try. You should never bow down to the dictates of bullies… I can say that with some certainty as I did just that for much of my life, too scared and too certain of my own lack of worth to stand up for myself. Especially as it was giving in to a bully that got me into this situation in the first place.Running away might solve the immediate problem, if only after a fashion… but it doesn’t address the unfairness, nor would it do me any good. So turning to face the problem is the only option that both addresses the issues and leaves me with some dignity.

In reality, it isn’t the corporate machine that I need to face here, it is the responsibility for the consequences of my own previous lack of courage,  current fears of failing and the possible consequences of that and my fear of taking on this ‘giant’, as if I am still not seeing myself as big enough or worth enough to do so. Well, if you’ll excuse me… sod that. It isn’t about not being afraid or worried… it is about doing it anyway.
Wish me luck…

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About Sue Vincent

Sue Vincent is a Yorkshire-born writer and one of the Directors of The Silent Eye, a modern Mystery School. She writes alone and with Stuart France, exploring ancient myths, the mysterious landscape of Albion and the inner journey of the soul. Find out more at France and Vincent. She is owned by a small dog who also blogs. Follow her at scvincent.com and on Twitter @SCVincent. Find her books on Goodreads and follow her on Amazon worldwide to find out about new releases and offers. Email: findme@scvincent.com.
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110 Responses to Goliath

  1. Good luck, my friend. I hope everything works in your favor eventually.

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  2. BunKaryudo says:

    I second Noel’s wishes. I must admit, I could really use some of the Dalai Lama’s serenity in my life. I don’t get angry very much, but I do tend to be a bit of a worrier about things.

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  3. blondeusk says:

    Great post Sue! Good quotes

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  5. Usually my husband is the one that do the fretting like an old grandma while I put actions in, always. Unusual for a woman, he said. But I am more the quiet type who burries her face in her books and rarely speak. Thank goodness I am a silent one … hehehe …

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  6. FlorenceT says:

    May things unfold as they ought… all the best, Sue!

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  7. Sorry for the hassles, Sue.

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  8. Good luck! All you need is a small sling and a well aimed stone 🙂 All the best my lady.

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  9. davidprosser says:

    I’m sorry you’ve had such a lousy weekend Sue. Stewing over your letter won’t have helped either. So, if this is something where you’ve suffered an injustice, I wish you all the luck in the world- and if at all possible, heavy damages.
    There are still companies out there who think they’re big enough that the public don’t matter as individuals. I just found out that Talktalk charged me £65 for an engineers call out to fix my phone/internet. No warning, just a direct debit from my bank. I’m of the opinion I pay for line rental etc so any repair is to their own equipment whether in the house or not since I don’t touch anything. Why do I pay twice?
    I have my fingers crossed for you and I hope you let us know how you get on.
    xxx Wishes for a better week and Massive Hugs xxx

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  10. Chris Hutchison says:

    That horrible phrase, and NOT a platitude, if i can help in any way.
    X

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  11. KL Caley says:

    Great Post Sue and Good-luck!
    “The strongest principle of growth lies in human choice” – George Eliot

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  12. jenanita01 says:

    Sometimes being stubborn can be a pain, but occasionally it pays dividends. As you say, the alternatives are not really on the table, so give it your best shot. I have a feeling that persistence will pay off. After all, most bullies expect us to run away and hide. When we refuse, sometimes they give up instead!

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  13. TanGental says:

    Go get’em Sue. They have unleashed something thye might just regret. Not sure about the good Dalai mind, he seems a bit simplistic on this one about change. Still he’s good for the odd bit of sense usually so, tick, just do it and don’t worry.

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  14. Helen Jones says:

    You are a mighty David, no doubt Sue – still, it is no good that you have to go through all this. And Mondays, always Mondays when such things seem to happen. I do agree with the Dalai Lama, but not worrying is easier said than done and, as you say, seems a natural thing to do when things aren’t going right. Wishing you plenty of stones for your slingshot and a true aim xx

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  15. stevetanham says:

    Luck.. and so much more. Give ’em hell. xx

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  16. fransiweinstein says:

    Good luck! The one thing I cannot do is lose by default. That to me is unbearable. I have to know I tried. So go for it Sue.

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  17. Cathy says:

    Hope things work out to your satisfaction without too hassle, Sue. Best of luck x

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  18. Keeping everything crossed for you, Sue. At least it’s the start of a new month tomorrow. In 22 days time the days start getting longer again.

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  19. Time to conquer that giant, Sue. Stay strong. Get that sling shot ready.

    On a side note, love how you phrased Ani’s adventures in gardening. ☺

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  20. my money’s on you

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  21. “I’ve had a lot of worries in my life,
    most of which never happened.” ~ Mark Twain
    What , me worry ? ? ? Look for the silver lining …
    Love, hugs and this too shall pass … ME

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  22. Leya says:

    Good Luck – believe in yourself and your capacity! Thank you for the follow too – much appreciated.

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  23. Janet says:

    This will strike a cord with many…good luck Sue xx

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  24. noelleg44 says:

    We are having dismal weather here, too, so I can relate to the first part. I need to send you a copious throw to put on the cream sofa to deter Ani from making an impression! As for standing up, I can’t imagine you making any other choice, and personally, I think you will make a formidable opponent. Go get ’em!

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  25. gardenlilie says:

    Sue … Sixty-six responses! I’d say you struck a cord with many regular folk. You sound very sane to me and I believe it works like this, lots of stones, words etc. are thrown but it is the one that matters when a righteous person from the Goliath finally sees the light, your light. So go for it, you may be the ‘one’ that hits the right spot, soft spot, and justice will prevail. I’d like to believe in karma, goodness, etc. win in the end. Why else fight?
    I hope this isn’t just a traffic ticket. Lol.

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  26. You are far from alone in your over-whelmedness. I think my pre-winter cleanup is out the window. It will all be a messy semi-mulch by spring, but that’s a long way away and sufficient unto the day and all that stuff. I can’t believe how pressed for time I am. And I have been exceedingly diligent. It’s just that the amount of stuff needing to be done exceeds the actual number of hours of awake time in my life. I’ve put my head down and recognized the futility of railing against fate … but what a mess it will be a few months from now!

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  27. socialbridge says:

    Sue, all the very best in this battle. If words are involved, you’ll win hands down!

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  28. Mary Smith says:

    I wish you luck, Sue. It’s always worth having a go – and soemtimes bullies crumble.

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  29. Mick Canning says:

    Whatever it is, good luck!

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  30. amommasview says:

    I only just read this. So how are you today? Are you a step further?

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  31. Widdershins says:

    I’m a firm believer in paper wars, or seeing as we’re in the interwebz age, email wars. Wear the bastards down with their own tactics.
    All digits crossed. 🙂

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  32. dgkaye says:

    I know those corporate battles only too well Sue. I wish you luck. Hang tough! Do keep us posted.:)

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  33. All the best in your efforts against the corporate foe, Sue. Let’s hope your David wins again against their Goliath. Sorry you’re having so many problems. I hope you solve them soon. 🙂 — Suzanne

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  34. Eliza Waters says:

    Best of luck – pull out that inner Ninja! 😉

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  35. Nearly Wednesday, hopeful your week has turned around! Hugs. Xx

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  36. I, for one, would NOT mess with a red-headed gal that is P.O.’d!!!! Hoping that all is going well and you were able to make your point (literally) with that bow and arrow 🙂 If you need troops, we will all gang up on the person/thing for you!! (Backing away slowly…)

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